The psycho-pharmacology of the summer of '95: Freud-Fliess 12
June, 1895 (reporting Mrs. R.'s nasal case, Midas ref):
You are right that I am overflowing with new ideas, theoretical
ones as well. My theories on defense have made an important advance
of which I shall give you an account next time [?]. Even the psychological
construction behaves as if it would come together, which gives
me immense pleasure. Reporting on it now would be like sending
a six-month fetus of a girl to a ball.. ...
Freud thought a lot in the '90s about male and female fertility.
I am feeling I to IIa. I need a lot of cocaine. Also, I have started
smoking again, moderately, in the last two to three weeks, since
the nasal conviction [that his cardiac symptoms were of nasal
origin, Masson suggests] has become evident to me. I have not
observed any ensuing disadvantage. If you again prohibit it, I
must give it up again. But do consider whether you can do this
if it is only intolerance and not etiology.
I began it again because I constantly missed it (after fourteen
months of abstinence) and because I must treat this psychic fellow
[kerl] well or he won't work for me.
I demand a great deal of him. The torment, most of the time, is
superhuman. (Masson, 1985, pp. 131-132).